confused + Njoy life

even though reason is on one's side, one must be forgiving; even though justice is on one's side, one must be soft spoken and humble.

i failed to do this whenver i get furious. or i shall not get furious but i am irascible. so that's it i am not soft spoken and i am 'scary'. people scared of me .

i dont really care because i am self-centred ( i guess ) and when i do care my heart hurts. so what i should do .. i dont know. so in conclusion: i am confused but stil enjoying life.

annual dinner.

College Annual dinner was held two days ago. Overall it was okay. Just that i did not feel comfortable sitting in a table where we are not welcomed. ( khai pin, daphne and me ). khai pin was not feeling very well and my roomate and me went quite late because daphne came back from dancing practise quite late and girls take time to make up. we reached dectar almost 9pm. it is pretty late. but the event had not started yet. so we are safe. there are stil alot of empty seats all over dectar. khai pin and i tagged along that night as usual. he wanted to go back early but i asked to stay a little longer because i wanted to take picture with other people. so we hang on until 11.30pm then we left. khai pin was kind of impatient , me too. so in the end two of us were moody.. the two pictures above the nicest among all the others. one with khai pin and the other with iyana.

khai pin is always the one that keep me occupied when i am alone. haha.. many people think that we have scandal but we are clean. we are neutral. i am grateful that both of us understand each other very well may be not very well but i do feel very comfortble hanging with him. no burdens ! we dont care what other think (i hope).thanks khai pin. may our friendship grow stronger and stronger. *_*

stil thoughts

1. the more you do, the more you gain. the less you do, the more you lose.
2. be willing to do, be happy to bear
3. always bear in mind the following virtues: understanding, forgiving, gratitude, contentment and treasuring one's blessing.
4. to do whatever should be done is wise ; to do whatever should not be done is ignorance.
5. only when knowledge is trully contemplated and reflected upon can it become your wisdom.
6. love is not asking from others, but is giving of oneself.
7. loitering away each day turns us into consumers of life. only by working enthusiastically can we become creators of life.
8. be mindful. dont worry or fret.
9. a person who always makes excuses for himself can never improve.
10. weeds fo not easily grow on a field planted with vegitebles. evil does not easily harbor in a heart filled with goodness.
11. the greater effort you put into your work, the more capabilities you gain.
12. it is better to have a generous heart than a spacious dwelling.
13. a person's happiness stems not from how much he owns but from how little he complains.
14. when one has weathered through all the sufferings, fortune may ensue; when one has enjoyed all the blessings, misfortune may turn up.
15. when sitting quietly, reflect upon one's mistakes; when chatting, do not criticize others.
16. a person with a clean conscience is at peace.
17. there are two things in life cannot wait; fulfilling filial piety and doing good deeds.
18. morality is a guiding light for uplifting ourselves, not a whip for rebuking others.
19. even though reason is on one's side, one must be forgiving; even though justice is on one's side, one must be soft spoken and humble.
20. many drops of water make river, many grains of rice make alarge basket; do not underestimate your own potential and do not think of any good deeds as too small to do.

these are some of the thoughts by master cheng yen.