..love you..

i love the way you live so intensely every minute, you don't hide from a fight, you don't give up, you strive for greatness

break on through

In general,
lines are there for a reason...
For safety...for security...for clarity.
If you choose to cross the line,
you pretty much do so at your own risk.
So why is it...
that the bigger the line,
the greater the temptation to cross it?

We see a line...
we want to cross it.
Maybe it's the thrill of trading the familiar
for the unfamiliar,
a sort of personal dare.
Only problem is
,once you've crossed,
it's almost impossible to go back.
if you do manage
to make it back
across that line...
you find safety in numbers.

deep ocean -blue

heart tells better than my brain. i trust my instinct and yet it cause me to think more. i tend to think alot especially when it comes to those matter that i am concern. to a certain i lose my focus and in the end people misunderstand your kind intention to some other purposes. this is really saddening, isn't it? however, life goes on from there and you learn to protect yourself by shielding up and isolating yourself... haha.. that's the old me that will do. i have learn to thicken my face and that i wouldnt bother so much as long as it is rigtichen for me. all i need to face is just my conscience. i may be gullible but i do trust my heart will "touch" the soul of the others when they are trying to cheat on me. this is naive aha.. i chose to be..

let's get started.

back on track.. back on my journey to achieve my destination.

been ignorant for some time and lost the purpose of being at ukm recently.

however , now i have made up my mind to continue what i have planned when i first stepped into ukm. strike for future!!! four years in ukm will be filled with excitements, happiness, inspirations, ambitions, gratitudes and learnings. whatever i do must fulfill a simple essential nature that is focus. and that when i have done all of this i have no regrets in my life.

head-on, gun blazing. =)

lets get the ball rolling. fill the world with love and passion. everything shall be alright and fine.

- sleep all the way -

sleeping has been my way to e-s-c-a-p-e from all the matters that are bothering me when i do not know what to do or do not feel like doing. so this is what i do when i am in blue too. and when i awake everything will be fresh although it is the same old crap that i am going through. and lately the frequency of me going to sleep is increasing .. kekekeke ..

2 labs were done. the remaining of the week will be lighter for me. just that i have four test next week and all require reading. hiew hiew hiew hiew..

the poking of needles like in my head is driving me mad. and the wan tan i was making this morning is reminds me that i need to drink more water. i will drink alot alot.please do not attack me at this particular time.

stay away from me

i am in one of my moods.

it's valentine..

Happy Valentine's Day

may all the lovely couples stay lovier, and sweeter and happier.To all the singles: enjoy the moments of freedom and flirtatious. muahaahaahaa.=)

Yes !! no lab

microbiology lab was called off. i was delighted actually as i have forgotten whether i will be having a german test today because many of my coursemates are going to have korea test today or tomorrow. so i started wondering when is miss lee is going to give us test as now is almost "the time already." but again if i know that microbiology lab is cancelled today , i would have save alot of my time. my microbiolagy class finished at 1pm. i could just walked back to kolej and take a bath. and that will only be around 1.30pm compared to now 2.30pm. ewwww.. one hour wasted. besides that, i can actually save one buck eating at ktho instead of fst cafe. aiks... anway, it is already over and i am happy because i can steal sometime whinging here ..

today in my speech communication class, we worked on group discussion where marks will be given on how a group discuss among the members. chyan ya and gang did quite well and i saw the potential in her. she spoke clearly but i membled. their group members are quite open and i saw my group members are " okay ". and i see impossible in me. what a bad thought! i am over it.. convincing myself that that is fear overwhelming me. i just going to put my best foot forward and evrything will be cool and fine.

i slack alot nowadays......... and the internet service in the room is always down. i shall not claim that i have internet connection in the room. damn geram !! hiew.... and i think i am smitten indirectly. without my knowledge. whatever.. !

i start thinking on how am i going to go over these four years in UKM. i need to broaden my outlook. and yee cheng keep tellling me that i should have gone to NUS instead of UKM. my uncle said that also. however i am already in UKM and i shall not regret on what i have decided but do my best i can.

chuckle, and spice up!!

chinese new year 2008

i am going into 21 years old.

today is just the fourth day of chinese new year but i am back in my room in UKM. stil remember last year this time, i was slacking at home with all the chinese new year biscuits. chinese new year is the period when we have holidays and time to relax our "minds and souls" by spending some quality time with all the relatives and family members. chinese new year is a good festival season because everyone will be wishing everyone with " gong xi fatt cai. "
however, i myself don't look forward to go back to my grandmother's house meeting up all the paternal relatives simply because i am not close to them or may be i don't like them. what i really cannot bear with is their lack of motivations. ...zipppp....

on chinese new year eve we went back for dinner around 8.30pm which is the latest i can remember. my sister and i are happy actually because we do not have to starr at the tv for so long. i had bah kua on that day. ethan and khai seng come to the world to join us this year. my aunt has two grandchildren. she has two more members in their family. ethan is so sweet when he sleeps. when everything goes grey, u see light and hope in the little ones. i want to have baby next time.i want to give birth even i am not married. but when will i know i am not going to get married. it is not easy to give birth when you are old.. as in really old..

hoho.. this afternoon my cousin came to my house. she is trying to play with me but i am rushing so i left for my friend's house. huhu.. she is cute. sir's daughter is cute too although she is ego.

she is so adorable and sweet and i fat fook already...

review..

i watched sweeney todd yesterday evening because marcus said it is good. But after watching it i don't really like it because it is a little bit illogical : how can a person not differentiate a human's meat and meat.. this is so disgusting ... when you do something so often you lose the feelings or excitement of doing it. this is what i am feeling right now on my studies. it is getting b-o-r-e-d. the same goes when Benjamin Bucker slit people's throat just like that. it is even more horrible when love turns to revenge.

i like the singing part.

i can feel you jo-ha-nna
i will steal you jo-ha-nna.

johnny depp is cute... but zac efron is cuter.

i watched the "object of love" this morning in astro 413. it was a very sad story because a girl fall for a guy who is gay and the gay at last chose to be gay. if i were the girl i want to have a baby for the guy.. it is not stupid but it is just very romantic but in reality . i doubt i will actually do that and yet if i dont care my family or other ppl will think i am crazee...

besides that, i learnt alot on blog this afternoon..

i almost done but in the end i ter- press a button and in the end lost evrything i have done. how silly i am .. aiks

and my brother was shoutiing at me because i have been using the internet whole day

hohohoho..

something that intrigue me

people dont normally talk about this because it is not a norm. keep it secretive will be romantic?!

according to wee kim,

first invole him with whatever you are feeling, sad, happy, excited, have to convince and involve him.

reveal your emotions and don't mask it. may be in front of other people, try to control and intend not to show it. but in front of him just go crazy ,whatever your feeling." i am so angry that girls always interupt when i am talking to you." make him feel what you feel. hoho..

well, i don't think it works for everyone. yoyo.. just an information that i want to write it down. many thoughts of mine demolish because my brain cannot remember so much. older..

Home is the best place ever...

mom tell me about sister (winnie on her weight matter)

got home i saw a hamper ..

and i saw my dog -fatter.

my cactus was slanting

my father was delighted.

a day before everyone went home for CNY

very often my tongue twisted and no words came out after that because i was too embarrassed and tired to actually repeat what i intend to say. i comprehend that this is not good because you will annoy people. i myself dont like it very much too. and so i resort to keep quiet.

an incident happened this evening. we ( ycm, terry, css and me) went to mid valley this evening. later on roy came and join us . i did not really say much to him but just an hi!. and then i followed ycm to the record tower on the highest floor. and as we were about to move to another stop, we met terry and css but see no sight of roy. and css actually asked me if am not happy to see roy in mid valley that cause him to leave. waahaahaa.. i was stunned. y ?i do not like him very much but it is fine for me if you want to join us. is me that obvious?! ya according to daphane because css asked about it. "sorry blame it on me."