confused + Njoy life

even though reason is on one's side, one must be forgiving; even though justice is on one's side, one must be soft spoken and humble.

i failed to do this whenver i get furious. or i shall not get furious but i am irascible. so that's it i am not soft spoken and i am 'scary'. people scared of me .

i dont really care because i am self-centred ( i guess ) and when i do care my heart hurts. so what i should do .. i dont know. so in conclusion: i am confused but stil enjoying life.

annual dinner.

College Annual dinner was held two days ago. Overall it was okay. Just that i did not feel comfortable sitting in a table where we are not welcomed. ( khai pin, daphne and me ). khai pin was not feeling very well and my roomate and me went quite late because daphne came back from dancing practise quite late and girls take time to make up. we reached dectar almost 9pm. it is pretty late. but the event had not started yet. so we are safe. there are stil alot of empty seats all over dectar. khai pin and i tagged along that night as usual. he wanted to go back early but i asked to stay a little longer because i wanted to take picture with other people. so we hang on until 11.30pm then we left. khai pin was kind of impatient , me too. so in the end two of us were moody.. the two pictures above the nicest among all the others. one with khai pin and the other with iyana.

khai pin is always the one that keep me occupied when i am alone. haha.. many people think that we have scandal but we are clean. we are neutral. i am grateful that both of us understand each other very well may be not very well but i do feel very comfortble hanging with him. no burdens ! we dont care what other think (i hope).thanks khai pin. may our friendship grow stronger and stronger. *_*

stil thoughts

1. the more you do, the more you gain. the less you do, the more you lose.
2. be willing to do, be happy to bear
3. always bear in mind the following virtues: understanding, forgiving, gratitude, contentment and treasuring one's blessing.
4. to do whatever should be done is wise ; to do whatever should not be done is ignorance.
5. only when knowledge is trully contemplated and reflected upon can it become your wisdom.
6. love is not asking from others, but is giving of oneself.
7. loitering away each day turns us into consumers of life. only by working enthusiastically can we become creators of life.
8. be mindful. dont worry or fret.
9. a person who always makes excuses for himself can never improve.
10. weeds fo not easily grow on a field planted with vegitebles. evil does not easily harbor in a heart filled with goodness.
11. the greater effort you put into your work, the more capabilities you gain.
12. it is better to have a generous heart than a spacious dwelling.
13. a person's happiness stems not from how much he owns but from how little he complains.
14. when one has weathered through all the sufferings, fortune may ensue; when one has enjoyed all the blessings, misfortune may turn up.
15. when sitting quietly, reflect upon one's mistakes; when chatting, do not criticize others.
16. a person with a clean conscience is at peace.
17. there are two things in life cannot wait; fulfilling filial piety and doing good deeds.
18. morality is a guiding light for uplifting ourselves, not a whip for rebuking others.
19. even though reason is on one's side, one must be forgiving; even though justice is on one's side, one must be soft spoken and humble.
20. many drops of water make river, many grains of rice make alarge basket; do not underestimate your own potential and do not think of any good deeds as too small to do.

these are some of the thoughts by master cheng yen.

..love you..

i love the way you live so intensely every minute, you don't hide from a fight, you don't give up, you strive for greatness

break on through

In general,
lines are there for a reason...
For safety...for security...for clarity.
If you choose to cross the line,
you pretty much do so at your own risk.
So why is it...
that the bigger the line,
the greater the temptation to cross it?

We see a line...
we want to cross it.
Maybe it's the thrill of trading the familiar
for the unfamiliar,
a sort of personal dare.
Only problem is
,once you've crossed,
it's almost impossible to go back.
if you do manage
to make it back
across that line...
you find safety in numbers.

deep ocean -blue

heart tells better than my brain. i trust my instinct and yet it cause me to think more. i tend to think alot especially when it comes to those matter that i am concern. to a certain i lose my focus and in the end people misunderstand your kind intention to some other purposes. this is really saddening, isn't it? however, life goes on from there and you learn to protect yourself by shielding up and isolating yourself... haha.. that's the old me that will do. i have learn to thicken my face and that i wouldnt bother so much as long as it is rigtichen for me. all i need to face is just my conscience. i may be gullible but i do trust my heart will "touch" the soul of the others when they are trying to cheat on me. this is naive aha.. i chose to be..

let's get started.

back on track.. back on my journey to achieve my destination.

been ignorant for some time and lost the purpose of being at ukm recently.

however , now i have made up my mind to continue what i have planned when i first stepped into ukm. strike for future!!! four years in ukm will be filled with excitements, happiness, inspirations, ambitions, gratitudes and learnings. whatever i do must fulfill a simple essential nature that is focus. and that when i have done all of this i have no regrets in my life.

head-on, gun blazing. =)

lets get the ball rolling. fill the world with love and passion. everything shall be alright and fine.

- sleep all the way -

sleeping has been my way to e-s-c-a-p-e from all the matters that are bothering me when i do not know what to do or do not feel like doing. so this is what i do when i am in blue too. and when i awake everything will be fresh although it is the same old crap that i am going through. and lately the frequency of me going to sleep is increasing .. kekekeke ..

2 labs were done. the remaining of the week will be lighter for me. just that i have four test next week and all require reading. hiew hiew hiew hiew..

the poking of needles like in my head is driving me mad. and the wan tan i was making this morning is reminds me that i need to drink more water. i will drink alot alot.please do not attack me at this particular time.

stay away from me

i am in one of my moods.

it's valentine..

Happy Valentine's Day

may all the lovely couples stay lovier, and sweeter and happier.To all the singles: enjoy the moments of freedom and flirtatious. muahaahaahaa.=)

Yes !! no lab

microbiology lab was called off. i was delighted actually as i have forgotten whether i will be having a german test today because many of my coursemates are going to have korea test today or tomorrow. so i started wondering when is miss lee is going to give us test as now is almost "the time already." but again if i know that microbiology lab is cancelled today , i would have save alot of my time. my microbiolagy class finished at 1pm. i could just walked back to kolej and take a bath. and that will only be around 1.30pm compared to now 2.30pm. ewwww.. one hour wasted. besides that, i can actually save one buck eating at ktho instead of fst cafe. aiks... anway, it is already over and i am happy because i can steal sometime whinging here ..

today in my speech communication class, we worked on group discussion where marks will be given on how a group discuss among the members. chyan ya and gang did quite well and i saw the potential in her. she spoke clearly but i membled. their group members are quite open and i saw my group members are " okay ". and i see impossible in me. what a bad thought! i am over it.. convincing myself that that is fear overwhelming me. i just going to put my best foot forward and evrything will be cool and fine.

i slack alot nowadays......... and the internet service in the room is always down. i shall not claim that i have internet connection in the room. damn geram !! hiew.... and i think i am smitten indirectly. without my knowledge. whatever.. !

i start thinking on how am i going to go over these four years in UKM. i need to broaden my outlook. and yee cheng keep tellling me that i should have gone to NUS instead of UKM. my uncle said that also. however i am already in UKM and i shall not regret on what i have decided but do my best i can.

chuckle, and spice up!!