Friday, March 14, 2008
confused + Njoy life
i failed to do this whenver i get furious. or i shall not get furious but i am irascible. so that's it i am not soft spoken and i am 'scary'. people scared of me .
i dont really care because i am self-centred ( i guess ) and when i do care my heart hurts. so what i should do .. i dont know. so in conclusion: i am confused but stil enjoying life.
Friday, March 7, 2008
annual dinner.
College Annual dinner was held two days ago. Overall it was okay. Just that i did not feel comfortable sitting in a table where we are not welcomed. ( khai pin, daphne and me ). khai pin was not feeling very well and my roomate and me went quite late because daphne came back from dancing practise quite late and girls take time to make up. we reached dectar almost 9pm. it is pretty late. but the event had not started yet. so we are safe. there are stil alot of empty seats all over dectar. khai pin and i tagged along that night as usual. he wanted to go back early but i asked to stay a little longer because i wanted to take picture with other people. so we hang on until 11.30pm then we left. khai pin was kind of impatient , me too. so in the end two of us were moody.. the two pictures above the nicest among all the others. one with khai pin and the other with iyana.
khai pin is always the one that keep me occupied when i am alone. haha.. many people think that we have scandal but we are clean. we are neutral. i am grateful that both of us understand each other very well may be not very well but i do feel very comfortble hanging with him. no burdens ! we dont care what other think (i hope).thanks khai pin. may our friendship grow stronger and stronger. *_*
Sunday, March 2, 2008
stil thoughts
- the more you do, the more you gain. the less you do, the more you lose.
- be willing to do, be happy to bear
- always bear in mind the following virtues: understanding, forgiving, gratitude, contentment and treasuring one's blessing.
- to do whatever should be done is wise ; to do whatever should not be done is ignorance.
- only when knowledge is trully contemplated and reflected upon can it become your wisdom.
- love is not asking from others, but is giving of oneself.
- loitering away each day turns us into consumers of life. only by working enthusiastically can we become creators of life.
- be mindful. dont worry or fret.
- a person who always makes excuses for himself can never improve.
- weeds fo not easily grow on a field planted with vegitebles. evil does not easily harbor in a heart filled with goodness.
- the greater effort you put into your work, the more capabilities you gain.
- it is better to have a generous heart than a spacious dwelling.
- a person's happiness stems not from how much he owns but from how little he complains.
- when one has weathered through all the sufferings, fortune may ensue; when one has enjoyed all the blessings, misfortune may turn up.
- when sitting quietly, reflect upon one's mistakes; when chatting, do not criticize others.
- a person with a clean conscience is at peace.
- there are two things in life cannot wait; fulfilling filial piety and doing good deeds.
- morality is a guiding light for uplifting ourselves, not a whip for rebuking others.
- even though reason is on one's side, one must be forgiving; even though justice is on one's side, one must be soft spoken and humble.
- many drops of water make river, many grains of rice make alarge basket; do not underestimate your own potential and do not think of any good deeds as too small to do.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
..love you..
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
break on through
lines are there for a reason...
For safety...for security...for clarity.
If you choose to cross the line,
you pretty much do so at your own risk.
So why is it...
that the bigger the line,
the greater the temptation to cross it?
We see a line...
we want to cross it.
Maybe it's the thrill of trading the familiar
for the unfamiliar,
a sort of personal dare.
Only problem is
,once you've crossed,
it's almost impossible to go back.
if you do manage
to make it back
across that line...
you find safety in numbers.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
deep ocean -blue
Sunday, February 24, 2008
let's get started.
been ignorant for some time and lost the purpose of being at ukm recently.
however , now i have made up my mind to continue what i have planned when i first stepped into ukm. strike for future!!! four years in ukm will be filled with excitements, happiness, inspirations, ambitions, gratitudes and learnings. whatever i do must fulfill a simple essential nature that is focus. and that when i have done all of this i have no regrets in my life.
head-on, gun blazing. =)
lets get the ball rolling. fill the world with love and passion. everything shall be alright and fine.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
- sleep all the way -
2 labs were done. the remaining of the week will be lighter for me. just that i have four test next week and all require reading. hiew hiew hiew hiew..
the poking of needles like in my head is driving me mad. and the wan tan i was making this morning is reminds me that i need to drink more water. i will drink alot alot.please do not attack me at this particular time.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Friday, February 15, 2008
it's valentine..
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Yes !! no lab
today in my speech communication class, we worked on group discussion where marks will be given on how a group discuss among the members. chyan ya and gang did quite well and i saw the potential in her. she spoke clearly but i membled. their group members are quite open and i saw my group members are " okay ". and i see impossible in me. what a bad thought! i am over it.. convincing myself that that is fear overwhelming me. i just going to put my best foot forward and evrything will be cool and fine.
i slack alot nowadays......... and the internet service in the room is always down. i shall not claim that i have internet connection in the room. damn geram !! hiew.... and i think i am smitten indirectly. without my knowledge. whatever.. !
i start thinking on how am i going to go over these four years in UKM. i need to broaden my outlook. and yee cheng keep tellling me that i should have gone to NUS instead of UKM. my uncle said that also. however i am already in UKM and i shall not regret on what i have decided but do my best i can.
chuckle, and spice up!!
Sunday, February 10, 2008
chinese new year 2008
today is just the fourth day of chinese new year but i am back in my room in UKM. stil remember last year this time, i was slacking at home with all the chinese new year biscuits. chinese new year is the period when we have holidays and time to relax our "minds and souls" by spending some quality time with all the relatives and family members. chinese new year is a good festival season because everyone will be wishing everyone with " gong xi fatt cai. "
however, i myself don't look forward to go back to my grandmother's house meeting up all the paternal relatives simply because i am not close to them or may be i don't like them. what i really cannot bear with is their lack of motivations. ...zipppp....
on chinese new year eve we went back for dinner around 8.30pm which is the latest i can remember. my sister and i are happy actually because we do not have to starr at the tv for so long. i had bah kua on that day. ethan and khai seng come to the world to join us this year. my aunt has two grandchildren. she has two more members in their family. ethan is so sweet when he sleeps. when everything goes grey, u see light and hope in the little ones. i want to have baby next time.i want to give birth even i am not married. but when will i know i am not going to get married. it is not easy to give birth when you are old.. as in really old..
hoho.. this afternoon my cousin came to my house. she is trying to play with me but i am rushing so i left for my friend's house. huhu.. she is cute. sir's daughter is cute too although she is ego.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
review..
i like the singing part.
i can feel you jo-ha-nna
i will steal you jo-ha-nna.
johnny depp is cute... but zac efron is cuter.
i watched the "object of love" this morning in astro 413. it was a very sad story because a girl fall for a guy who is gay and the gay at last chose to be gay. if i were the girl i want to have a baby for the guy.. it is not stupid but it is just very romantic but in reality . i doubt i will actually do that and yet if i dont care my family or other ppl will think i am crazee...
besides that, i learnt alot on blog this afternoon..
i almost done but in the end i ter- press a button and in the end lost evrything i have done. how silly i am .. aiks
and my brother was shoutiing at me because i have been using the internet whole day
hohohoho..
Monday, February 4, 2008
something that intrigue me
according to wee kim,
first invole him with whatever you are feeling, sad, happy, excited, have to convince and involve him.
reveal your emotions and don't mask it. may be in front of other people, try to control and intend not to show it. but in front of him just go crazy ,whatever your feeling." i am so angry that girls always interupt when i am talking to you." make him feel what you feel. hoho..
well, i don't think it works for everyone. yoyo.. just an information that i want to write it down. many thoughts of mine demolish because my brain cannot remember so much. older..
Friday, February 1, 2008
Home is the best place ever...
got home i saw a hamper ..
and i saw my dog -fatter.
my cactus was slanting
my father was delighted.
a day before everyone went home for CNY
an incident happened this evening. we ( ycm, terry, css and me) went to mid valley this evening. later on roy came and join us . i did not really say much to him but just an hi!. and then i followed ycm to the record tower on the highest floor. and as we were about to move to another stop, we met terry and css but see no sight of roy. and css actually asked me if am not happy to see roy in mid valley that cause him to leave. waahaahaa.. i was stunned. y ?i do not like him very much but it is fine for me if you want to join us. is me that obvious?! ya according to daphane because css asked about it. "sorry blame it on me."